Thursday, October 11, 2007

This sucks.

Dieting really sucks. It really does! I hate being hungry all the time and I hate not being able to eat what I want. I LOVE food. All kinds of food. Low fat food is boring and bland, unless you really know how to prepare it and quite honestly, right now I simply don't have the time to mess around with new recipes.

What sucks even more is that I feel like I am depriving myself - yet I'm not really seeing any results!! OK, I'm not starving myself but then again I'm not having pizza, or chips or pasta, or fried stuff. So why is the scale not budging??!!

I think I'm going to try the Fat Smash diet.

The good news is that the gym is going well. My clothes are fitting me much better and I can feel my body getting tighter. I just hate the idea that in terms of weight, I may only be "maintaining."

Friday, October 5, 2007

4 days later

Ok, so it's four days since my last post and the good news is that even after my run in with Popeye's chicken (and further slipups)... I was actually down to 134.5 lbs!! That made me happy.

But now I feel like I'm falling off the whole diet wagon again. Yesterday I snacked almost constantly. I feel like I can't help myself sometimes. The only good thing is that I'm still going full force at the gym. So I guess it makes up for the face-stuffing but I want to do more than just "break even" at the end of the day. I want to get thin. I think eventually I am going to have to change my diet all together. I wonder about eating lean cuisine every meal? It's easy, doesn't taste god-awful (then again it's not very satisfying).

I need a goal. I need a deadline. And the upcoming holidays are going to be challenging. I LOVE holiday feasts and as of now I have no plans on forgoing them.

Monday, October 1, 2007

Cheaters never win.....

Well, it's been 2 weeks. So far, so good. I've even been hovering around the 136 mark!!

EXCEPT -- I decided to "treat" myself and gave in to some Popeye's fried chicken on Saturday night!! Oh, what was I thinking. I was doing so well. This only lead to further weakness... pasta yesterday, cheese doodles and a small piece of pizza. I feel lousy. I feel like all the work I've done thus far has been wasted. So it's true I guess, that cheating just leads to more cheating, and if I'm EVER going to get to my goal, I can't give in to temptation.

So I must get back on the horse and go "balls out" again to make up for this slip up. Tonight I'm going to make sure I really push myself at the gym and get back on track. All is not lost... just a minor set back :)

Monday, September 24, 2007

Official Weigh In

138.

How it all started...

Let's see. After giving birth in March, I was kind of waiting for the pregnancy weight to just fall off. One month, two months, then three months went by and I was still not able to get into my pre-preg clothes. By June I was able to squeeze into my old jeans. The "transition" clothes I bought were becoming loose. At that point I got real lazy. It seemed enough for me to be able to just wear my old clothes again.

I told myself and my husband I'd officially begin my diet/exercise plan after summer ended. (If there's one thing I can't stand, it's exerting myself in the heat.) So by the middle of September I realized - the time is now. Another thing that helped kickstart my butt into gear was my "midlife crisis" (more on that later). As I am approaching 34, this is not going to get easier. I want to feel good, look good and be healthy... and I am the only one that can make it happen.

Day 7

Well, since I've made it one week into my diet...or shall I say - my new "lifestyle." I figured I'd begin a journal of my progress. Maybe it'll keep me on track. Or maybe it'll just be a place for me to vent my frustrations from feeling hungry 24/7. We'll see. In any case, here I am!